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ok i decided to edit lol. i dont know what to talk about lol. im sitting here typing naked because its MAD HOT!!!. hahahha

ima write about how people think im dumb lol. that seems to be the new crave.( i think thats the phrase lol) well im not lol i know more shit about you than you think i know. hahaha i am like really bugged the fucked out! like idk i think differently now.

rikers:
that just popped in my head lol. i wanna write about my trip on rikers island. ugh! it sucks now because now i cant say i have a clean record now lol. and no for the lame ones im not boasting on being locked up b/c its not cute. however i did learn alot about bitches there and how they act and how they can be grimey ( like i didnt already know) but i guess you can say it was more exsposed. no i didnt get beat up or anything. idk i just kinda stayed to myself. i did see this one fight when i was in the pin on my way to court. hahaha i felt bad for this one girl. but anyway. the bed is mad hard. like i couldnt sleep comfortbly. food was aweful. i coulnt take it there. too many rules. they check you like every 5 minutes for a contraband.(weapons, drugs, etc.) and they did count like every 2 minutes just incase anybody escaped (which i dont see how) or committed suicide. i also went to school and i went outside in the yard. the yard was fun because they played music lol. it was definately an experience that i would never forget. but thank god for my baby & fam for visiting me and putting money on my account so i can make calls and eat the other food they had. well its was more like junk food but it was better than the messhall food lol.

the bookings:
i hated it! i stayed up for two days. couldnt shower for 3 days! i was stinking but i was blaming it on a crackhead that was next to me lol. but yea i was sitting on this bench because the mats were taken. my back was hurting. of ocourse the food was wack! bitches fighting. lol A WHOLE BUNCH OF CRACKHEADS!!! i was like wow are you serious? i thought i was going to be put in my age group lol. but i just remembered that once your 18 they charge you as an adult. bummer. but yea they had me cracking up lol. so i waiting for them to call my name and i found out i was in night court. when i as called to the judge i couldnt understand not one thing my lawyer was saying to the judge but i saw i was going back to the pin and i wasnt going to be release unless i was out on bail. so i ended up in the rikers pin. called my gma and explanned the situation (the phone upstairs was free thank god). i was kinda pissed off that my uncle didnt bail me out but hey i got over it. and then i was on my way to rikers. the inmate bus had like little pins in it. lol i was like WOW they have cells on the bus! hahaha thats crazy.

my bestfriend:
11.12.07 thats our date. so we been togeher for 8 months now. i ride for him. hahaha i was speaking to someone about the situation and they was like you would go down for a nigga? and i said yes. nobody understands our situation. but i stayed down for him. the cops was saying i was going to do 10yrs i knew that was a lie they wanted to scared me to snitch. hahaha but thats what real people do they hold it down. i held it down for him on the inside and he held it down for me on the outside. thats a long ass story to write about him so i'll save it for later lol

my future:
well college might be deaded still unsure. if it is im going to a trade school and pick up a trade. not like a trade to find a job but something i can put to use when i start my business. hahaha i be damned to find a job again smh.
1. its like odee hard.
2. i never get called for an interview
3. or i never make it pass an interview.
4. believe me i tried my hardest i looked on the web and actually walked around in stores.
5. most jobs that im available for dont pay enough lol

until next blog. peace.